A bitch is emerging from my hermit-like state to face the new year.
My ass sank into a full on end of year funk...a major funk....a 'who the hell needs to get out of bed' kind of funktitude, if you know what I mean. Blink. It took me some time to see the funk for what it was and then I had to get over being pissed off at myself for ever allowing the funk to settle in.
Oh well, I clearly needed it. This was a productive life exploring and then affirming funk, so it was worth a few days hiding under the covers whilst avoiding people (wink).
I have come to understand that many people, including myself, avoid life exploring mental wanderings because they have the potential to produce funks. Scooter B. comes to mind. All that determination appears at first glance to be the mark of leadership, but it may actually be the intense avoidance of inner work for fear of a funk.
Or he could just be one stubborn motherfucker.
Where was I?
Oh yes, resolvitude!
Resolutions require reflection on what has been and what is. What emerges post reflection is an understanding of the goals ahead and how to bloody well reach them. Whilst getting my hermit on, my ass hit a wall of reality, indulged in the funk that resulted and was left with no other move but to climb. I passed by the mistakes and misunderstandings, climbing over the painfully accurate realizations and rubbing my boot in the face of the many doubts and frets that come with the burden of an enlightened mind.
On the other side there is the future...2007...and a bitch has work to do.
A bitch resolves to be more honest with myself and work on seeing shit for what it is rather than what I would like it to be.
Fuck, that's going to be a tough one.
On the struggle...
A bitch resolves to further define my role and to seek knowledge from others to better fulfill it.
Oh fuck it all.
A bitch resolves to eat more vegetables, drink more water...and limit my adoration of all things smothered to a sometime thing.
On the evolution of my afro...
A bitch resolves to give my afro free!
Go on and grow with your bad ass self.
Three cheers for keepin it real in 2007, chil'ren!