I was going to write about how NBC’s Today Show spent an entire segment exploring the many marriages, affairs and divorces of the newly sanctified just in time for the 2012 campaign season Newt Gingrich…but then I saw this tweet.
@clairecmc I'm tired of looking and feeling fat. Maybe talking about it publicly will keep me on track as I try to be more disciplined.Off to the gym.
That’s my Senator, Claire McCaskill.
We all, every one of us, need to stop doing this shit.
We need to stop seeking motivation through condemnation and negativity.
We need to stop feeding that monster and we need to stop doing it about 100 years ago.
I think Senator McCaskill is being honest and I think she thinks that publicly calling herself out for having a physical appearance she doesn’t like will somehow produce enough embarrassment and “now everyone is looking at me so I’d better shrink” accountability to inspire her to start working out.
She’s going to get a bunch of tweets back telling her that she’s lovely and looks great.
She’s going to get a ton of nasty tweets taunting her about her weight and all manner of other things that nasty people enjoy taunting other folks about.
This technique may work but it also feeds that monster…that sad belief that what we hate we change, that what we get shit for we address, that what we are bullied over we’ll stop.
I once participated in an exercise where I tracked how many times and ways I said negative things about myself for a day.
It was well over 100.
Over 100 comments about the size of my ass…my math skills…my writing…my singing voice…my dawg mothering skills…and so on and so forth.
100 opportunities wasted on negativity.
100 chances to celebrate the fact that this ass is my ass and I’m healthy for the first time in over a year…to acknowledge the fact that I’ve never encountered a math problem I didn’t ultimately solve…to enjoy writing…to sing because I love to sing and it fills my soul…to find comfort in my two dawg companions who love me just as I am.
I’d like to be as healthy as I can be so I’m recommitting to the things that make that possible.
I know that I’ve got the discipline to do this.
Off to carpe the diem.